"You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough."

hmm. okay. you only live once, check. it's the working it right part that could be a toughie. i mean, how exactly are you going to know that you're doing it right? sure you could say that if you want nothing then you've got it nailed but maybe you're just placid and don't even realize what an unfulfilling life you are leading.. but then, it probably wouldn't matter to you if you had one life or fifty if you were placid. as for me, i've always maintained that i'd go early. for multiple reasons. if i want to have the exciting slam bam life i desire i can't expect to outlive all the risks. and. i fear old age. i really do, alzheimers scares the shit out of me. my grandmother had alzheimers and that disease is one mofo i don't want to handle. also, i can be very dramatic and it's fun to declare something like this. only occasionally though. and in jest. because if you say it in deadly earnest your friends and family will cart you off to a "safe" room.

heh. i got off topic there. yes, the quote. i think i agree with it.. not sure. i'm only 17 after all. maybe that's another reason why i fear old age. but it sure makes my own sense of mortality seem weird (teens have that immortality thing going on in there heads usually.. drunk driver i am not. drunk i am not. wait, i'm getting off topic again.)

now. jade's question.

If you could be anyone in the world, living or dead, who would you be and why? Do you feel as though you and this person are very similar, or are they your complete opposite?

damn i hate questions like this. it requires way too much thinking. i could just answer it with a superficial response. the usual. you know, gandhi. jesus. bob marley (which would be interesting). but i just don't know. by the word be do you mean live out their entire lifetime as they would have? experience their experiences? in which case... my mom. she's gone through so much in her life and i want to know how this has affected her. you know? gain a little insight. as much as i complain, i love my mom. but sometimes it's downright confusing.

as for similarities, yes. there are some. i am her daughter after all. but then, i am also her opposite. i am not as focused. or singleminded. i tend to see every viewpoint and not just my own. but we are both compassionate.