I really miss:

my ex-wife. she was it. everything. and now shes faraway.

it hard sometimes. but not a lot. im doing well. i really am. its almost like shes dead. shes gone. probably forever. and partly, thats my choice. its hard. to let go completely. i sincerely hope none of you have to go through it. i havent cried in months. i hope i dont start right now. i dont know why im thinking too much. need. to. stop.

My favorite person in the whole world. thats hard. so i will list a couple of my favorites.

My dad. always supportive. an inspiration really. i love him a lot. i always could look up to him. hes been a stable part of my life ive needed.

Dav. a true friend. a brother. a true brother. words cannot express. hes been there for me so so many times. and i for him. semperfidelis. that should be our motto. cause we stick together. and his friendship means the world.

Beth. this girl. is like rad. she makes me think. and gives me hope in this inspiring way. its hard to explain. but i love her.

Jamie. the coolest person ever. she always makes me laugh and smile. even when i dont feel like it. im still getting to know her.

So many more people. I love people. they touch me. and make me happy. Im a people person.

hope you all are well.

JOhN