sometimes it's a heavy feeling, a feeling of unbearable pressure. usually that's one of those unexplainable things for me. i have no idea why all of a sudden i feel like nothing is even worth the effort and just breathing is so incredibly hard. when it's that kind of brown i listen to mellow music. like i said in my diary, colorblind by the counting crows has been on repeat. i just downloaded kaya [the entire cd] by bob marley and that seems to be working too.

other times it's a slightly pissed off sadness. then i like to yell along with the music. a song like radio by alkaline trio is a personal fave.

when it's just a mild touch of brown i like to listen to upbeat music. or funny music. ben kweller and my live violent femmes cd are particularily good at getting me out of the dip.

other music: bright eyes, saves the day, starsailor, dashboard, finch, ani and liz phair.